Closer (h.s.)

Chapter 4

Harry's POV

I sit on a chair next to his bed,doctor said he didn't make any progress but that's good i guess since he didn't get worse.

I really need to talk to him.

"I'm so selfish Ed...you're fighting for your life and all i can think about is how much i need to talk to you." i put my hand on his squeezing it lightly. 

"I know you can hear me buddy,you always listen to me." i stare at him."I hate myself for what i did to you." my voice cracks.

"I should be in jail Ed.You're in coma and two other people lost their lives.But I guess,I prefer to live with guilt than pay for my mistakes." i squeeze his hand harder hoping for a reaction.

I want him to tell me i'm wrong that it wasn't my fault.

"Isn't that what always do Ed? I make mistakes and i don't fix them i just run away.Isn't that what i did with Emma? I was treating her like shit when i knew she was my everything and then i blamed her for everything." a couple tears run down my cheeks.

"But what she and he did to me is unforgivable Ed." i raise my voice unintentionally but as i calm down i bury my face in my hands.

"I met a girl today.She seems different,such a cliche right?" I chuckle."She's full of life but full of pain too...like how's that even possible?" i run my fingers through my hair."I don't know why I mentioned this,she just- " i let out a sigh."It's probably nothing." i'm taking a moment to look at him before i stand on my feet .

"I want to fix my mistakes.I'll find out why the brake pedal wasn't working and if it's just my idea,i'll surrender." I promise."I swear Edward." i punch lightly his elbow just like he used to do it to me and exit the room.

I should go back to school,i'm not allowed to go out if Williams finds out i'll be in a big trouble.

Nikki's POV 

"Isn't  a little risky ordering pizza to school?" i ask Niall as we get out of the building and walk to the big entrance of the school.

"It's very risky,we may get expelled." he replies calmy.

"What?" i immediately stop and cross my arms.

"Oh c'mon...i'm joking." he stops as well and turns to face me worried.

"Too bad,i was hoping i could get expelled." i joke pouting  on purpose. 

" You almost got me." he giggles.

When are we finally there Niall takes out his wallet and pays the delivery boy who brought us three boxes of pizza,then Niall gives one box to the secutiry guard and takes the other two with him as we going back in the building.I invited him in my room and he gladly accepted.

"For whom is the other box?" i ask him politely as i open my room door,checking if the bandana guy is inside.

"One and a half is for me the rest it's all yours." he informs me chuckling.

"Oh such a gentleman." i pat his elbow playfully and make my way to my bed.

"Where's your roomate?" he asks as he follows me.

"Um i don't know and truth is i don't really care." i say as i sit on my bed,Niall grabs a chair placing it in front of me and sits.

"Uh huh,well it's kinda late i don't want to cause any problems." he says opening the boxes and handing me mine.

"My roomate is the only problem here." i reply annoyed at the thought of him before i take and start eating my first pizza piece.

We talk,he tells me about the girl he's in love with back in Ireland and i find myself  emotional by his story,she is his first love since 1st grade though they were dating a year ago she left him for someone else but he refuses to forget her.That comfort me because he seems like a really decent guy and i'd like him only as a friend.