Dumbass.

Dumbass.-Chapter 8: Life of regrets

l sat up taking the covers off of my body before feeling Amy's body move from behind me. "Justin, come back and sleep, please."She mumbled wrapping her arms around my stomach. I laid back down and turned to her wrapping and arm around her pulling her close.

She sighed laying her head on my shoulder. "Justin?"She asked yawning. "Yes?"I asked. "I'm sorry."She frowned against my chest. "What are you sorry for?"I asked confuse. "For falling for you, for being in your life. Just for letting you know I exist."She sighed. "Amy, that's the best thing about my whole life knowing you exist is a blessing."I smiled.

She looked up and nodded. "Sometimes, I just don't understand what I did in life to ever be lucky enough to know you personally."She bit her lip. "Amy, your amazing I'm the lucky one. You are worth more than you believe."I pressed my lips to her forehead but she moved away.

"What's wrong?"I asked. "I'm not ready for a relationship. I'm not ready to be hurt again."She looked down. "Amy, I'm not going to hurt you, again. I love you so fucking much. You mean everything to me."I moved her hair out of her face.

"Justin, you said these words to me before and look at how we ended? You say you love me and that I mean everything to you but when a better opportunity comes you take it. Then you expect me to crawl back."She sighed. 

"I'm not going to lie, that hurts a lot. When you cheated on me I felt like everything we talked about, everything we planned together, our love died. Every part of us just died in the fingertips of ours. I never loved a guy so much."She looked up her eyes watering.

"But it doesn't matter. We are just friends now. We had our chance and you didn't want me so we are just going to get over it."She sighed.

"Amy, I can't just move on. It's been two painful years and I miss you even more. Amy, I fucked up I was wrong. I hurt you. I hurt my world. Now my life just isn't so beautiful. I know you think I didn't change but I did. I have suffered and I still am. I really really love you."I bit my lip.

She looked down. I moved my hand to her chin pulling up her beautiful face up. Her eyes met mine where she completely let loose. Tears raced down her beautiful cheeks her teams similar to a stream. They poured down her cheek, every tear breaking my heart even more.

"Babe, I'm so so sorry. I-I fuck up the best things that was to happen to me. I really really love you Amy. I just can't live without you."I frowned. She closed her as I wiped her flowing tears with my thumb.

"Justin, maybe I'm just not good enough for you. Maybe it's not meant for us to be together. I-I think that we happened by accident."She frowned.

"Amy, that was not by accident. You fell for me and I fell for you. There was no accident. What was an accident was that night. That night I went to the club instead of being with you."I looked down.

"You never told me the story. That night how you found her and stuff."She said making me look up. "You want me tell you?"I asked. "Yes, I can tell if your lying."She nodded. I held her hand and looked her directly in the eyes.

~Flashback~

The night was magical. I never really wanted to go but with Twist persuade me it was great. A few great songs came on and even mine. The crowd was loud but I was really interested in getting my mind off of things. I went to the bar and took a seat thinking as the bartender approached me. "Anything you would like?"She asked taking out her note pad. "Anything to get my mind off things."I replied. I been so stress lately. I just been caught up in so many things.

"4 shots of vodka and club soda."She put it down giving me a small smile before leaving. I thanked her and took the first shot feeling it rush down my throat leaving a burning sensation. I turned around looking at everyone. Strippers, couples or soon to be, party singles, and many other kinds of people all dancing having a great time.

Everyone except me. I turned around and took the rest. Them four turned into ten and them ten turned into even more. I smiled at a girl that really familiar. The rest of the night was a mistake. I woke up seeing brown curly hair thinking it was you. I told her "I love you Amy." Not what ever her name was, Amy.

I should of known it wasn't you. The sex wasn't even like ours. She seemed like a retired whore. That morning when I seen you at the door tears falling I knew I screwed up but the fucked up part was I realized how bad I fucked up when you left.

My heart would hurt so much I wasn't sure if I could breathe without pain. I would stay isolated in my room not leaving unless Scooter forced me to work which made me have a fake smile.

I couldn't get to the point to where I would be happy. I didn't feel like myself. It was this piece of me is missing. I started to not eat I would drink lots of beer hoping that it would make me forget the pain and it did.

Well for a little while before it came back. I lost myself Amy, when you left a part of me did as well. I miss you so much, Amy and I just don't really understand what made me be so dumb.

"Was it the fame? The knowing you could have any girl you want? Did it get your head?"She asked tears falling from her eyes.

I believe so. I just let it get to my head and lost the best thing that has ever happened to me. I'm so sorry for being so stupid. I just really wanted to live a stress free life. I-I don't know why I would be so stupid.

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"Justin, I forgive you. Are you hungry?"She asked a smile forming onto her pink lips. "Amy, I don't want to eat right now."I frowned wiping my tears. "Oh, so you think I'm a bad cook?"She asked.

"No, It ju-" "If I'm not a bad cook then let's get some breakfast in our stomach."She got up. "Just-!" I turned around seeing Scooter and Alfredo going from panicked to shock.

"Yes?"I asked getting up to stand next to Amy. "A-Amy, Chad thinks you went missing. What happened to your fa- Did you hit her Justin?"Scooter asked turning to me.

"What, no. If Justin did anything, he saved me. Chad had beat me last night because he thought I was cheating on him with Justin at Chucky Cheese which is false. Justin was driving and well he found me on the side of the road. I don't want anything to do with Chad so you can go call him and let him know."She crossed her arms.

"Yeah, what she said."I smiled making her laugh. "He hit you? Are you okay, Amy?"Alfredo walked up to her checking her face. "Yes, I'm fine. Don't touch my eye please, it burns when you do."She answered. "Did you go to the hospital?"Scooter asked her.

She shook her head. "Justin, insisted but I turned it down. I don't want to go to the hospital really I'm fine."She answered.

"Let's just go just in case."Fredo said with a worried look. "I'm fine, guys."She replied. "Are you hungry?"Scooter asked. "Are you hungry?"She asked me.

I nodded. "Yes, I'm hungry."She answered. Fredo and Scooter looked over at me confused and I looked back shrugging. "Look, Justin helped me, the least I could do is do the same."She said.

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