Chapter 8

                                    

                                              
Dear Harry, 
                          
I just had a huge fight with my long term boyfriend. I feel like I'm giving up. I have given my all, but it seems that my all is not enough. It's like the destiny shows that I have to let him go. 
                          
That's one of the same voices that came up to me three months ago about you being my soulmate and I have to let him go. I guess this is one of the process of detoxifying? One of the process that I have to do in order to get to the end goal of the voices which is when you and I both realized that our souls are make the same. 
                          
I cried out loud to Him in my prayers. I'm tired of this relationship like all the tears had dried up. I only wish when we meet up it would be a beautiful thing ever because we feel that we belong to each other and meant to be together. Like in the real way. 
                          
Because I believe if God makes us both a soulmate, it would be the most beautiful thing. Not because you are the Harry Styles that everyone knows about but because you are you. 
                          
Whom God has created for me, for us only. 
                          
It hurts to let go what I've called my home ground, my long time relationship. But I have to. 
                          
I secretly wish that we could just meet up already so that I don't have to suffer the pain. But that would be an easy journey right? 
                          
I cried out loud to Him to help me, guide me the pathway to you. 
                          
I cried out loud asking if this is real and I'm not making this up. 
                          
He says patiently despite of my anger and brokenness, 'Yes it is.' 
                          
I put my hopes high because I know He knows what's the best for me. 
                          
I'm planning to move to England next year. I don't know what will happen, but if the voices says I have to go. Then I will go and follow it. 
                          
Hoping that this moving decision will somehow opens the doors of being in the same community with you. 
                          
This might sounds creepy, I don't believe it my self of why I'm doing this but is it wrong to follow that inner voices that speaks loudly inside me? 
                          
Is this just my fantasy? 
                          
Or 
                          
Is this the real fact that I have to face? 
                          
I seriously don't know. 
                          
But if all of these are real, I would love to just started with a friendship, a simple Hi. How are you? And as we got a long, we'll follow the steps, the journey. 
                          
The journey of fate and see what happens from there :) x
                          
Best Regards, 
                          
Vx